6. Natural cycle

 



Natural cycle

Monday (another month later) 

So here we are again. Except this time everything seems to be going well. Except for massive flooding (again) and having to pack up and leave so that we will be able to get to the hospital for transfer day. I am thankful that my in-laws have a place that can house us all. My new medication has been working well (for now) and I am being closely monitored. My stress level has been pretty good considering the situation. I think I have made a conscious choice to not let much affect me. Because of the floods, I am much closer to the hospital and all other services. I have been able to book in for acupuncture for pre and post transfer and a massage sometime this week. I wouldn’t have been able to do otherwise or it would have been way more stressful. Now I can look back and see that I have tried all “the things” to give this “transfer” every chance. I hope I won’t look back and regret not trying something. I think that alone is worth spending the money. I have decided that after the transfer I am going to do two things. Try to distract myself to not think about the possible outcome and dream that it worked. Contradictory. I know. I am not going to think about what if it doesn’t. I am going to allow myself to “go too far” in my mind because now is the time for hoping. I can deal with the soul crushing devastation later. And if hoping means I fall harder later, then so be it. 

I am doing a natural cycle so they were waiting for the urine ovulation tests to show that I was ovulating. I had two dark lines today. They informed me that I am ovulating and when my transfer day would be. I am a little confused as I don’t need to do any ultrasounds or blood tests this time round. I hope they got it right?


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