7. Frozen embryo transfer day (FET)




Frozen embryo transfer day (FET)  

Saturday (Frozen Embryo Transfer day) 

Well that was anticlimactic. Not in a bad way though. We did our COVID tests and then I got dressed in my super stretchy lined tights and my “let it bee” (with a picture of a bee) hoodie. Seems fitting I think. I had my acupuncture pretreatment at 8:45am, which was actually really good because it got me out of the house and not sitting around nervously at home. It also forced me to relax. Then we drove to the hospital and was 30 mins early. They told us to come back in 10 so we went for a lovely walk in the sunshine.


We came back and were escorted to room number one. We were told to strip down and gown up. I wasn’t sure which gown or which cap. My husband got the blue bonnet looking one that ties under your chin. He looked adorable. I had a white one that looked like a mushroom. Very cute indeed. Definitely my cutest outfit for “making a baby.”


We were then lead through the clinics hallway to a double doored room. It was here we got to meet our little embryo for the first time. It was clinical but not uncomfortable as I had become familiar with these walls. Our day 5 embryo looked great with a healthy amount of bubbles surrounding them and a nice inner circle that becomes the baby. It was beautiful. With a rainbow through the middle of it (which I’m sure was just the bad quality of taking a picture of a screen) beautiful none the less. The nurse explained to us that they had to unfreeze all 6 of our embryos because they were not developing as well as they should have. So I guess I feel ethically relieved that I don’t have to make any decisions about the others. I feel strange as well. Almost like I am abandoning them. We were only going to do this once though. One transfer and then move on with our lives. Either way. I keep thinking about the photo of our embryo and how I might one day be able to show them their first ever photo we have of them. I love them already. I am already incredibly blessed to be able to carry them and call myself pregnant no matter how long that is for. I am very protective of them.


We finished the transfer with a massively full bladder (don’t drink a litre next time) and a bit of confusion about what just happened. I didn’t get to have any Valium either (which I was looking forward to) I was expecting it to hurt more or even at all because at most, it was just uncomfortable. I know the embryologist did something though because she showed us the famous air bubble in the tubby thing that goes in the uterus and squirts the little embryo in the air bubble out. Total technical terminology use there. I feel like she should have jammed it in a bit harder though. So then I could feel it happen. I’m a bit like that. Want things to be felt so I know.


Now I guess the little guy needs to find a spot and nuzzle in. Now for the two week wait. Although technically my period is due in 9 days. Not sure why the timing is what it is. Something to do with the days of the embryo matching the days of my lining… I dunno. So I guess the 9 day wait or sooner if the the clinic text me to test. 


Later that night

My stomach feels so bloated or swollen it kinda hurts to stand up straight. I think this is the progesterone. My feet are so cold. The Acupuncturist said that this is the progesterone. 

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